"There's nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and open a vein." ~Walter Wellesley "Red" Smith. Part 1 of 5.

So I've been trying really hard to write this out and make myself feel better about my current life without actually writing about my current life, but it's not working. So here I am, at half past midnight, blogging. This can't be healthy.

The last time I really wrote was Thursday, September 23. That was almost...well, as of today, it was legitimately 3 weeks ago. 3 WEEKS since I last updated this.

God. So much has happened. How do I even explain everything that's happened?

Ok. Slow down. I am currently in one of those moods where you feel absolutely alone in the world and nothing can make it better, or at least you think so. Usually when feeling like this I go and watch Edward Scissorhands, which isn't an option at the moment because my copy is packed up somewhere and netflix unfortunately does not have Edward Scissorhands on instant queue. Edward Scissorhands is my go-to movie when I'm feeling sad about something. I've written poetry, prose, essays, all kinds of stuff about this movie. It's been my favorite movie since 2nd grade, and I've watched it, oh, at least a hundred times. I can't really explain why I love it so much. Part of it is that he ends up alone. And it's not a BAD thing. He's where he needs to be, and it just happens to be alone. That gives me hope. And then, obviously, he's so different. And it's WONDERFUL. It's like this signal to all the messed up kids in the world that just because you look frightening or you act strangely, you may get messed with by most of the world, but there will be a few who see you for what you are, and they make all the difference.

Anyway. Let's keep going, and skip the introspection. So usually, I would watch this movie, and right now I can't. So what do I do? I write right now, it's going to come out an emotional ball of wreck that I post on the internet, and God forbid this blog suddenly go viral overnight because of my screwball emotions. Ok, so. Take a deep breath. Clear your head. Hey, ImprovEverywhere posted a new video, let's check that out!

Here, you can follow along.



Ok, that was fun. Oh look, there's MysteryGuitarMan! He posted a new vid! Awesome.



Mmm, Brazilian cutie playing guitar and making cool videos of it...never a bad thing.

Ok, ok, I'll quit procrastinating. Feeling slightly better, let us delve into the depths of the human soul (or, more specifically, my own less-than-human soul) and figure out what the hell has been going on the past few weeks to bring me to that post break-up, waking up late, sleeping all the time, crying on skype to your parents, eating whipped cream straight out of the can feeling. I say feeling because the only one of these I've actually done has been the crying on skype to my poor long-suffering parents.

Here we go.